I can’t go against.
I’ve just figured that i can’t be straight… I can’t take V. out of my mind, even knowing that he wants to be just a friend.
I still love him so much to think in another thing. I still dream about us getting together.
Of course that the idea of being gay isn’t that good for me. I feel so afraid of seeing my mom that sad again. Sometimes she is upset with something and i became so sad wondering if her sadness is my fault.
But as everything is normal with me and my mother, i remember of V. [That’s funny, the human being always wants more, if a problem is solved (or at least is out of sight), he focus on the next one.]
Maybe i can go straight, but not with V. in my mind…
