I’m confused
It’s not what,
Good boys do
Not how they should behave
My head gets so confused
Hard to obey
I don’t know if i can go straight. I want it, but the idea is weird for me. It’s crazy to think that i was wrong since i was 13. I don’t know if i really can have somethng with a girl.
And i’m really loving V. And i think that he feels the same way for me. I want to tell him that i love as soon as i can.
But i’m in doubt. I think that maybe i should wait just a bit. Soon i’ll be in the college and i could met a girl and start to love her. Maybe i’m going too fast chosing the gay way.
When i think on how sad my mom was after i told her that i’m gay, i don’t want to bring that back. Seeing my mom sad is terrible for me.
I don’t know what i should do. I want to date V. so much and i always find myself thinking on him. But i don’t want to hurt my mom (and myself).
Maybe the most logical would be dating V, even if my mom is against. But the problem is that my mom isn’t just a mother for me. We are really friends, i can’t ignore her. She is the most important person for me.
