Sometimes i think that would be better if i don’t try to be straight. I’m sure that i like boys, so why i would follow the doubtful way?
I feel that i really love V and that he can feel the same for me. I know that if i have something with him, it would be for real.
I’m afraid of discovering that i can’t be straight and have trouble to find someone for who i feel the same i feel for V.
But i do know that if i try something with him now i would be going thru the gay way with no way back. And i don’t want to be gay.
